I did not think it would be like this.
I can not do this more.
everything I do is just wrong.
why should it be exactly like this?
why right now?
it hurts so much inside of me,
like a knife stuck in my heart.
And crushed it,
In a thousand pieces.
It hurts so much.


I might start crying,
because it hurts so much.
or when I think of what was before,
before this.
when you did my best.
when I was the one you wanted.
but now it's been a while.
It hurts so much.

There are so many memories.
fixed unless we known each other for as long.
there are too many words,
too many words for you.
but you're such a wonderful person.
I start to cry when I think of,
when we are holding hands,
and much more.
It hurst so much.

I never want to lose you.
I just want to hug you,
and never let you go.
I just want to see you in the eye,
and say what you mean.
It hurst so much.

Without you,
I am not whole.
without you,
I will not be long.
without you,
there are no words.
It hurst so much.

I love you,
as a friend,
and perhaps a bit more.
I want to share more memories, 
with you.
I want to laugh and smile,
with you.
It hurst so much.

if you read this,
Please send a signal.
I want to say sorry.
Soon dryers I submit more,
please forgive me.
I miss you.
It hurst so much.